So here it is, my friend.
It took a little while to sink in the idea that I never did actually loved you, my friend. I dunno why it took me so long, but now that I’ve come to the terms with it all I can feel is, sadness. As the egocentric son of a bitch I am, it’s not because I’ve failed towards you, but rather that I’ve been lying to me for such a long time.
Maybe all I wanted to do was love someone before I even knew how do love myself. Maybe it’s because I’ll miss you by my side everyday and that sorta scares me a little bit, because as you know, I’m just a kid. I’m a kid trapped in the body of a man who needs to get up everyday out of his bed even though he’s well aware of the true question: “What’s the point?”
Yes, I did enjoyed being with you, but I’ve never loved you, or anybody for that matter. Love is a beautiful thing and now that I know what it is, it makes me wonder why couldn’t I love you back then? We had thousands of plans but none ever came close to reality because, and as a broken recorder I’ll repeat that I’m a egocentric son of a bitch.
The way you looked at me I never looked back at the same way. The way you held me, I never did the same way. But the day you left, was the day I knew I had to memorize every single detail because that was it. Life became cold all of a sudden that moment, you’ve heard all that bullshit before. Grass wasn’t green anymore, food had no taste, yada yada. Well all that is unfortunately true. I guess what I want to tell you my friend is that I miss you. It was shameful of me not realizing it sooner, and I’m paying my fair dues to the crime I’ve committed.
So here it is, my friend. Karma.